人世的纷攘中，我怀念母亲略带哀愁的慈母关怀。

假使有一天我离开你们，不是因为远方更美，而是我付不起爱你们的帐。让我说：I am sorry, I love you.但我要走了。

从北京到故乡，有一列直达的火车。多年以来，都是乘它来往于两地。

乘火车旅行比较枯燥。欢乐的几次是和女朋友一起。

现在的火车提速了，有空调，饭菜也好过以前。

现在在天涯，故乡只是想像而已，有零星的信息，宁愿他是幻想了。

与家乡渐渐失去了联系。彼非彼，此非此。祝福他们，为他们祈祷。祝他们健康欢乐。永远有一杯烧酒是留给他们的。

这首歌，纪念渐渐远离的故乡，亲人，和曾经的恋人们。

Decide to start my new workout tomorrow.

In this deeper-and-deeper financial crisis, each of us has to find a way out. At least, found the “break through opportunity”.

Prepare and exercise for better. Hope for the best. Pray for magic.

A-men.

Sorry that I assaulted you. I truely feel sorry for what I did and the pain that I caused you. Right now, I have no rights to ask you more.

But I want you to know that: I am sorry, I love you.

in January, police arrested me and charged me for assault. I stayed in jail for 24 hours.

I don’t like jail. The cell is empty with a stone bed and a toilet. I could not sleep that night. And in the early next morning, I was sent to court. While in cell waiting to see the judge, I determined that I should not stay there if there is any possibility. People there are hopeless.

Me too.

Fortunately, I was bailed out. That is another hard world, but at least, I can do something to improve the feelings better. I learned that there is nothing bigger becuase all you need in this out-jail world is to take care of yourself. At least myself.

Thanks.

update:

After 4 months of being in a program called mental health diversion, the charge was withdrawal by the crown, but still in a program called Peace bond resolution. Basically I am freer than I was before. What a relief! ..

人世的纷攘中，我怀念母亲略带哀愁的慈母关怀

我们有许多事要做，但我们得不时的安静一下。为什么要安静呢？找个真实感觉。

我们人类是地球上的统治者，会制造工具，有5000年的文明历史。这会造成一种错觉，就是自大。想想宇宙存在几千亿年，距离达到几千亿光年，形形色色的

星球大到比地球大不知道多少倍。我们不是大，而是小。鲸鱼都比我们大。还有无奈，有的星球我们永远也到不了。

时间是什么？那么大个星球，不着边际的在宇宙中悬在那里，什么都不知道。

所以想想，不知道的好。

知道了吗？